Its been a really long time since I've done an entry on my Mom. Its been a hard couple of days for me. I don't know if its because it was 2 years ago that we found out she had cancer or what, but I've been missing her a ton. I've been reading her journals again. They are so inspiring and they sure make me feel closer to her. I decided I wanted to share some things out of her journals on my blog. Of course it won't be really personal things. Only things that I think are special that I know will inspire, teach, or uplift. She was an amazing teacher and she continues to teach me through her journals, and I know she can do the same for all of you! So Enjoy!
December 31, 1977 (Saturday)
"Another year has come and gone and I find that they seem to rush by so quickly. I am a year older and I hope a little wiser.(Just so everyone knows...she just turned 20!). This year I am starting a journal so that at the end of the year I can look back and enjoy the memories and reflect on the events that have taken place over the course of a year. Perhaps one day my children will read it and come to know and understand their mother better. (You have no idea Mom!). I have often been accused of being a very complex person and I suppose I am in some ways. But I like to think of myself as a person who loves people and life in general and likes to get the best out of both. I've made many foolish mistakes in the process but I'm learning and repenting. I have far to go before I become the person I want to be. There were a few years when I broke away from the church. Those years were the unhappiest of my life and I will always look back on them with pain and regret no matter how the rest of my life progresses. I hope I can prevent my children from wasting precious years as I did.
Jim and I have been married for almost 3 years. Our anniversary is April 4, 1975. We have one daughter, Ginger Lee, born October 5, 1975. She just had her 2nd birthday. She is a dainty blonde beauty who's smile reflects the sweet spirit within. She is like me in many ways, as she delights in the music of words and loves to recite nursery rhymes, sing songs and make up stories. Her imagination knows no bounds and she continually amazes us with her flair for the dramatic. She is an artistic child, one that is hard to understand at times, for her moods change as fast as the wind, but she is a treasure in every way, a shining star in our home. What a wonderful gift from God and quite a responsibility indeed to see that she is taught and nurtured and given every chance to grow upward. We are expecting our 2nd child in March which makes me 6 months pregnant. Of course we are hoping for a boy, especially Jim, who really wants a son. I'd say it has been a pretty good year and I'm certainly going to try to make the best of 1978. A few of my New Year's resolutions are:
1. be a more patient Mother
2. be a more understanding wife
3. be a better latter-Day-Saint
4. stay in shape"
Ha ha ha...do her New Years resolutions look at all familiar. I think some of them are pretty universal for Woman. Its amazing how inspired she was the day that she decided to write a journal. I urge everyone to seriously and faithfully keep a journal. I cannot express in words how much these journals of my Mom's mean to me. How much they teach and inspire me. I know your children will feel the same one day!
To be continued...
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