Waiting.

Isn't it so hard to wait patiently for something you want so badly! I'm still waiting for this little bean to make an appearance. I guess I shouldn't be surprised since all my babies have gone over my due date, but its still annoying and frustrating. Everyday I think "this could be the day...the 12th is the perfect day to have a baby", and every night as I climb into bed I think "please don't go into labor until the morning...and tomorrow is a new day...maybe THE day!" Most nights I climb into bed and the contractions begin. I think "okay, I'm going to try and sleep through these as much as possible", then I wake up a few hours later, and there gone. Guess I better start getting out of bed and walking when that happens again. Then maybe something will come of them.

We spent the weekend in Cardston for Heritage Days. We had a lot of fun! The kids loved the parade and got a ton of candy. Ryan was in the family ball tournament so we spent a lot of time watching him play ball. It brought back a lot of memories for me watching him play. Its been awhile since he's been able to play. Back when we were dating and engaged I would go to his games all the time. All I can say is he's still got it! We took the kids to their first fireworks show. The boys were so animated and funny. They loved them, and if you know Ty, he could not keep quiet the whole time. He had to make noises or comment on each firework. It was so funny. McKenna just laid her head on Grandma's lap cuddled in her blanket with her little face peeking out and had no reaction. She doesn't really like loud noises. When it was all over I asked her if she liked them and she said no. I said "but they were pretty!" and she said "well I liked the pretty one's!" It was a really fun weekend. I was really hoping I would go into labor so we could just leave the kids out there, but no such luck.

Monday was back to reality. Monday was my due date. We went out to Adam and Britt's, and spent the day out in Raymond to keep my mind off of the fact that it was my due date. We visited with Grandma and Grandpa and had a nice day. By Wednesday morning the kids and I had had enough of each other. Really a bad combination...a grumpy Mother, and kids who were whiny and disobedient because their tired of having a grumpy Mother! So in the evening Ryan shipped them off to my amazing in-laws. They are having much more fun out there I am positive! It has been peaceful around here. I have been cleaning and cleaning...hoping to clean myself into labor, but no such luck. So here I am waiting....waiting for something to happen. Waiting for this little bean to want me as much as I want them. Hopefully the waiting ends soon. The kids will return on Saturday. Please come before then little one!

Maybe I need another day out in Raymond. Visiting with my Gram. She is so like my Mother and I am desperately missing her right now. Then I can go hold my sweet little baby niece. Maybe she will inspire her cousin to finally want to come! One week overdue folks! I've decided I need to stop putting my life on hold waiting for this baby to come! Life goes on! The little bean has to come at some point...he/she can't stay in there forever...right?