Well, its Mother's Day. I still can't believe I'm a Mother of three! I can honestly say that I'm doing pretty good at it because of you. You have been my greatest example and have taught me how to be strong, independent, but also giving and kind. I wish you could know all the feelings of my heart...but please know that I love you so much! You have become my best friend, and I have learned so much from you. Life lessons that will help me through my journey here on earth. I have so many cherished memories of growing up and am so greatful to belong to such wonderful parents. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you, and can't wait to be with you again.
Love you forever!
It's amazing how Heavenly Father (without us realizing at the time) prepares us for things to come in our lives. I have always had a good relationship with my Mom. Even when I was a teenager we got along great. We never fought and I loved spending time with her. One of my favorite memories is our girls weekend's away. Good food and shopping! When I was a teenager she once said that she always felt that she would die young. At the time I just laughed it off and said "Mom, don't say that". Heavenly Father was preparing her. She also use to say she never wanted to get old. After I got married, Ryan and I spent a lot of time with my family. We ate dinner at my Mom's probably 4 out of the 7 nights per week. And I saw or talked to my Mom everyday. Some people at the time might have thought that my Mom did too much for us...that we spent too much time over at her house, but how greatful I am that we got that time with her.
My Mom couldn't wait to be a Grandma. She had to wait an extra long time. I was the first to get married and have kids, and I have two older siblings. When Nate was born we saw my Mom pretty much every day. Her and Nate had such a special relationship. A week after I brought Nate home he was already having sleepover's at Grandma Kim's. He was so spoiled and spent so much time with his Grandma. My Mom was always changing diapers and I seriously don't think I bathed Nate once (except for the first time) the whole first year of his life. Again, to the outside world it looked like my Mom did too much for us, that we spent too much time at my Mom's house. But I am so greatful that Nate got to spend so much time with his Grandma. My Mom loved being a Grandma more than anything and she only got to do it for 3 years. But they were three action packed years! When she was sick in the hospital the medicine they gave her made her dream a lot, and she would do and say funny things. She was usually doing stuff with or talking to Nate. It made my heart ache every time, but also made me happy because she had so many special memories with Nate. When Ty and Izabella joined our family my Mom got to spend lots of time with them too. We were always gathered at her house. McKenna joined our family two days before my Mom went into the hospital. It killed my Mom that she couldn't really hold her very much or change her diapers. I'm so glad that my Mom got to see her though. And it was especially special that we could have McKenna's blessing at the hospital. She was the best Grandma!
My Mom had a good relationship with her sister and her Mom, and we spent a lot of time with my Grandma and cousin's when we were younger. My Mom served in every calling in the church and was a seminary teacher when she got sick. She touched so many lives and helped so many people. She got to travel a lot. She's been all over Canada and the U.S and even got to go to Mexico, Switzerland, France, London, and her dream vacation to Israel(which she went on 2 weeks before she went into the hospital and was in lots of pain while she was there). She would be the first person to tell you she had a wonderful, fulfilling life. She had many trials and struggles but she was strong and overcame them all. I know that when she died she was at a good enough place in her life that she was ready. She told us that she wasn't afraid to die, just afraid of what she had to do to get there. I know she is working hard on the other side and enjoying every minute of it! Serving came so easy to her that I know she is the happiest when she is able to serve. I miss her like crazy but am so happy for my Savior and my family who helped me through the last year. I never knew I could be so strong, and my testimony has grown leaps and bounds because of this experience. And because I know with certainty that I will see my Mom again, I can move on and live life to the fullest! I am so grateful for this knowledge! Thank you Mom, for loving me and teaching more than I could have ever imagined in the short time that we were together! I love you!
10/05/09
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